I don't know that I would say that I'd forgotten how hard it is to run in the snow because I've never truly been able to feel like i'm flying when I run until this year. Today SUCKED. Every step was twice as hard as it should have been, my feet ended up caked in snow and soaked all the way through.
My pace was significantly slower than I was used to and it felt soooooo frustrating to not be able to run how I like to. That being said If I can keep up my 'slow' pace through winter I suspect that when Spring arrives I'm going to be able to fly.
It was interesting today though...I had several people comment/ask/make reference to the fact that the pace we ran at was too fast for me today. Ummm....not even close. A friend pointed out that they're just not used to how much stronger and faster I've gotten over the last few months. Okay I get it, but it's still some what frustrating. In part that's why I really hate how this clinic has us all going out in specific groups.
In the past it was kind of an en mass things and people of similar paces naturally grouped together. Now you have a choice...2:00, 2:15, 2:30 or to complete. Let's be honest...those are HUGE differences. I'm right in between pace groups and I find it exceedingly frustrating. Do see what word keep popping up here? I don't like feeling like I don't fit in. I don't like feeling like people are judging me by who I used to be.
I'm not stupid. I know my body and I listen to it. I've been running for 4 years...and I've NEVER been sidelined with an injury (other than for a day or two). Why? Because I listen to my body...always. Stop trying to pigeon hole me into a group because I'm like a giant human sized square peg you're trying to jam into a round hole.
I'm starting to realize as I re-read this that I'm having some major issues with what I know at heart are well intentioned people. I don't do well with people telling me what I can and can not do...never have, never will.
Will I ever be thought of as anything other than a slow runner?
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