Doubt

People keep telling me that i should dump my timed goal for this weekend...there are too many outside factors...I should just be happy finishing. The thing is, I won't break if I don't meet my ambitious goals...I won't. I'll be annoyed but find the good in what I did. I always do.

I need to have big goals and dreams...it's what allows me to do what I do. It allows me to reach higher. If i was willing to settle for realistic goals in my life would I have signed up for the Ultra? Would i Have even though that running a full marathon was within my reach when I haven't been able to break 2:30? Nope.

Here's the deal. We all know in our hearts what we're capable of and we don't need to have anyone's doubt expressed to us. We know it. We live it. We hear it echoing around in our brains all day long. What we need to hear is positive reinforcement.

It doesn't matter what the distance we're training for. We know that it's going to be tough. We know that running in winter is hell. I'm still going to do everything I can to get this thing done. The layers will be plenty, the feet will be cold and my face will burn like Hades no matter how much Vaseline will be on it. In the end though it will be worth it. That feeling of crossing my 20th 1/2 marathon finish line will out weigh all discomfort.

Most of all though, if i can manage to do this thing...if I can manage to PB again in winter...there will be nothing I can't do in life.

Now I just need to have nature try and play along with me. Please be kind dear lady, please be kind.